A love/hate letter to my ex

After such a long relationship, I can't deny that you possess great beauty. However, since I made the decision to leave you behind, I'm feeling an overwhelming sense of freedom within me.

I'm grateful for many things you did for me. You provided me with opportunities to grow and evolve. Through you, I found my family, who gave me more than I could have ever imagined.

But beneath all this warmth, I know there's a colder side – not just physically, but also emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Twenty years after first watching "The Matrix," I finally begin to grasp what this movie is truly about. It's not merely "science fiction"; it's a documentary cleverly crafted to illustrate how detached and cold you can be, all while nobody seems to realize it.

You've created a world filled with so many distractions that it's easy to live a full life without ever asking myself, "What do I want?" I'm not referring to the shallow "What do I want so I can have XYZ?" because that's the lie you've been selling since our first encounter. You did it when I was young and inexperienced. "If you are good in school, you'll have more opportunities later…" you said. "With a good job, you can buy a house, a car, and all the things you (don't) want later..." you said. “And now you have some money, you can hand it over to me in the form of taxes, insurance, and pension, all for your own safety later...” I believe it's all a lie. I believe you want me to invest all my energy in you so that you can amass more and more power, and all you do in return is make me dependent or why am I the only living organism on Earth that would die in a few weeks without you? That's why I made the decision to sever our relationship – to have the freedom to ask myself, "What do I want?" Yes, I must be honest – I'm still dependent on you. But I'm taking the first step away from you, so maybe my children or grandchildren can call themselves independent, and perhaps they won't need to ask, "What do I want?" because they'll just do it.

So thank you for giving me a chance, a possibility, and a path. And also, no thank you for trying everything to hold me back.

Switzerland, modern society - I wish you all the best.

Your Ex Noah